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News On My Mother Post Surgery Complications Showing up again – and Apologies

Update 3/15/13:

My Mother is now in the Rehab Center, in a room where she can see her favorite nurse there, that is the good news.

The bad news, the feeling/movement went away about a day after after surgery. It’s official now, Mom is a paraplegic, she had 2 weeks to start feeling her legs, by the doctors figures. My Mother is now  numb from the lowest ribs down for 2 weeks now and we must face all the fact that she will be a paraplegic for the rest of her life. She and Dad must face trials they shall have to face for her disabilities. From being in the wheelchair, to being catheterized and carrying a bag for urine to diapers for the rest of her life. Her Sewing on her machines (which the adores will be a problem without feet to operate, no driving etc). This is going to be a time of mourning the loss of use for half of her body and dealing with difficulties as she/we learn to adjust to her newest disability… her artwork with her hands, thankfully she will continue and will be a MUST for her to work with to escape her new situation. We, are all greatly saddened by this.

my hands forming a heart, with the words "Asking for Blessings and thoughts of strength, the warmth of love and of wellbeing for my Father and Mother
As of late last night, we received the news of Mom’s Complications being back again. We are preparing ourselves for the worst and hoping for the best.

First let me start off with one of my apologies at the top here (the other one will be at the bottom of my post). I apologize for my lack of tweeting, posting on facebook and adding more to the blog at this time. I promise you all, I am going to resume my reviews and giveaways here very soon. First, I am waiting on the Blog’s Grand Opening for the whole Month of March, for some really fabulous Reviews and Giveaways. Secondly, I may not be tweeting or posting much for the next day or two as I catch up more people on the latest & I await some hopefully good news.

I have had a roller-coaster ride today with news on my Mother’s surgery, good news about the my Mother, she made it through surgery. Then bad news, machines were showing that she was not receiving the readings she should have to her legs, so fear was she’d become a paraplegic. Then the news that as she was able to move her toes on both feet ever so slightly, so maybe paralyzed from surgery and maybe not. Then the great news that she could feel the doctor as he touched her legs. Now as she is out of recovery, my family received the message below from my Father…

Quoted from my Fathers email:

Please keep the prayers coming.  She is completely out of the anesthesia now. 
 
As expected she is in a world of hurt and things seem to have changed for her legs.  She can barely wiggle her left toes.  Right ones don’t seem to work at all and she has no feeling in either leg or foot now.
 
There is some swelling in her back and the doc hopes the problem will leave as that reduces, but no guarantees.  He says it may take a week or …

As may be expected she is terrified.  Will spend a few days or more in the ICU.

I had a good cry finally while talking to my Sister on the phone, so nice to hear from her, it seems she read Dad’s email at the same time as I have. I have been near tears most of the day here.

I apologize and I am sorry that I started my post out the way I did for my “Day of Prayer” post and possibly the other posts as well. I understand, after talking to my Sister about what happened today, that it could have been misconstrued as to the meaning of those posts and stopped many people cold right there, as people may have thought I was pushing religion on them and they quit before reading what all I had to say… quite understandable. I am so sorry, this was not my intention.

I wish for you all to know that I never wished to push the people that quit “liking” my blog on Facebook away, nor did I intend to push religion on anyone (visa vi my mention of prayer in my posts, where I did try to include everyone in the posts by just asking for caring thoughts as well). I am easy going and never judge people for their beliefs, religion or anything like that.

I am so sorry for those I offended, honestly I was just posting out of fear for my frail Mothers well being and hoping that I selfishly may feel some support today, as I really love my Mother and have been finding it difficult to see her go through so much.

I am so thankful for the outpouring of care, sympathy and support by several of my readers. And I am so very thankful too for the many of you that have stuck by my side while I go through this right now… Thank you everyone. And thank you for putting up with my rambling in this post, I wrote this late at night and today I don’t have the energy to rewrite it, or add pictures… as you can guess it was a very hard night to get any sleep.

Love and hugs,

Mariah

Mother going back into the hospital – just received a phone call from Dad, letting me know

 

A picture of my Mother, pre drastic weight loss and a few years back.
My Mother in better times, on prednisone in the picture, and a few years back.

Hi friends, my beautiful sweet and courageous Mother has been very sick for quite some time. Like me she suffers from an Autoimmune Disease which has been complicated by surgeries on her back, one of which caused a Hospital Contracted Infection which cannot be cured and I suspect the site of the infection is flared again.

Dad said that Mom’s back is in serious pain again, as you may recall I wrote about her and Joan in a post on Joan and Mariah’s Reviews a while back and my Mother ended up in the hospital for about a Month as a result of her infection and other complications.

My Mother is down to 71 pounds at last weigh in, that we have talked about together as she is having serious problems eating too. I am very very worried about her and know that I will be spending some time on the phone trying to cheer her up and hopefully I can squeeze enough out the budget for me to travel to the hospital to go pay her a visit or two.

A Sample of my Mothers Artwork, she paints in oils, this is her Calligraphy, her own poem and drawing which is painted in watercolors.
A Sample of my Mothers Artwork, she paints in oils, this is her Calligraphy, her own poem and drawing which is painted in watercolors.

Please my friends, family and readers, send out positive thoughts to and prayers for this wonderful lady (a talented Artist, Mother of 6 and all around loving caring and brave woman). My Mother’s Name is Nancy… I appreciate your thoughts and prayers and I truly believe in the power that is held in the thoughts and prayers sent out.

Thank you, love and hugs,

Mariah

Ramblings of illnesses, beware not a possitive post

Let me preface this with: I may suffer from chronic pain and have many things wrong, but I am quick with a friendly smile, a hug, to tell a joke and just plain laugh.

Since I’ve gotten progressively in more & more pain, it saddens me that I noticed, in the past 9 years or so, that I subconsciously found myself moving or shrinking away fast from any unexpected hugs and/or touches, and I that’s definitely not me it’s the pain and I hate it! *sigh* This very part of me, is the part of me I miss the most since being sick… bad enough I can’t do so many things, like simply keeping a house clean, as well as keeping up with dishes etc etc… but to shrink away from a touch? Something I crave so much? What can a person do?

I still am a friendly people person, who loves to meet new people although, I find that with my illness I don’t know from one moment to the next if I will be able to handle going someplace visiting. You will very seldom find me behind a wheel or even feeling up to a car ride… “normal” people don’t comprehend that, nor do they understand that even on a better day I can’t drive myself more then 10 minutes without a lot of pain or that I will know from one day to the next, not to mention from one minute to the next, if I will be okay and/or up to doing anything. Hard to keep friends this way and even more difficult to keep them… and darn it, I am a people person!

Speaking of which being okay from one moment (or day) to the next, is there any such thing as a good day? I haven’t seen one in so long that I can’t remember when I last had one. Wait a minute I remember a good 2 hours of a day, once things loosened up from getting up in the morning, I bragged and yes cried… I was actually feeling well, and that was about 2 years ago… someone who understood pain (a psychologist that my doctor sent me too thinking it was all in my head, and later she told me that my feelings, frustrations were all righteously placed and kicked me loose after only a couple of sessions) asked me a question that made me think very very hard and brought me to tears… “Can you remember having a good day? pain free?”

Ok so here I sit, feeling sorry for myself… a rare thing for me, but feeling the impulse to share with the poor people who may stumble upon this blog… and you know what? It feels good to let it out! I have saved this post and rewrote it about 10 times now for the past few months and you know what? It still applies… and I actually will publish it this time!

Hey if you feel or have felt the same, why don’t you write something in the comments and we can share?

Take care of yourselves!
Luv & hugs,
Riah