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Finally Up and At Em here – News on Me and on my Mother

 

Sick Teddy Bear Bandaid Taking TempuratureHi there my loyal readers, I am finally back with you all here after a bought of pneumonia. My first experience with Pneumonia and I hope I never get that sick again. I never imagined how Pneumonia would feel nor that I could hear my own rattle as I soaked my head laying in the tub. When I heard the rattle from my breathing in the tub, it made everything more real for me and I just threw up my hands and said “okay, I surrender, it’s real and when I feel tired (all the time) I will go to bed and not fight it any longer.” As it got worse for 2 days, I also couldn’t imagine that I would feel the lungs filling up and pushing on my rib cage, or at least that is what I imagine the new pain was all about… it felt like someone had gripped the back of my spine from between shoulder blades and down and started just pulling the spine and lungs outward. OUCHIES! Again the only escape since my pain meds didn’t touch that pain, was to soak in a very hot bath tub and then go back to bed again.

I hope that none of you caught that nasty bug that is is going around, for me I called everyone that I knew that had a cough and told them to see their doctor to make sure they were okay. Seems I was the only one that the bug went this far, I blame stress and my autoimmune for this, my first experience, with pneumonia. I am a worry wart and spent a lot of time thinking about my Mother and her becoming paralyzed from the waist down.

A picture of my Mother, pre drastic weight loss and a few years back.
My Mother in better times, on prednisone in the picture, and a few years back.

Speaking of my Mother, two Sundays ago, she moved one leg about 5 inches! Unfortunately she doesn’t have feeling at all, and it hasn’t happened again since. Talking to Mom, she wonders if what they saw as movement could have been that they were moving her upper body and her limp legs just happened to follow and so one looked to move on it’s own. *sigh*

Well, I choose to believe that Mom moved her leg some… I continue my positive thoughts of love, warmth, strength and my prayers for her. I believe in miracles in our modern world and I have witnessed a few in my lifetime… so I am waiting for more miracles for my Mother. More miracles? My Mother is in such a positive mood despite all she’s going through, she has the strength to laugh through it some and the strength of spirit to go ahead and be herself still as she complains about physical therapy still… to me, well… her spirit alone as she goes through this difficult time is a Miracle in it’s self, she’s such a strong woman and I am so proud of her!

A Sample of my Mothers Artwork, she paints in oils, this is her Calligraphy, her own poem and drawing which is painted in watercolors.
A Sample of my Mothers Artwork, she paints in oils, this is her Calligraphy, her own poem and drawing which is painted in watercolors.

Dare I say that some Nurse or someone that is taking care of Mom, possibly a physical therapist told her something terrible… told her she could just stop eating and give up, saying goodbye to what she’s going through! Of course Mom won’t tell me who said it, that does make me mad! I cried and screamed on the phone when Mom told me that… I don’t care who said that to my Mother while she was just so freshly moved to the Life Care Center in Longmont, this was all so new to Mom, and being so new a situation for my Mother to be going though… I had a feeling that my Mother thought about it for a moment or two! I hope this person doesn’t make a habit of this, as a friend said to me, who knows what this person, that said that could be capable of!!!!

Anyway things seem to be doing well, Mom even thinks that she may need some new clothing since she feels she’s putting on weight! Yay, now weighing more than just 71 pounds is great news! 🙂

Me, Mariah forming a Heart with my hands fingers, red nail polish on with white stamped hearts
Me forming the shape of a Heart to send to all my lovely readers… love you all!

Please, keep my Mother in your thoughts and prayers… lets help get a miracle for her legs or just help keep her mood so wonderfully happy and strong!

News On My Mother Post Surgery Complications Showing up again – and Apologies

Update 3/15/13:

My Mother is now in the Rehab Center, in a room where she can see her favorite nurse there, that is the good news.

The bad news, the feeling/movement went away about a day after after surgery. It’s official now, Mom is a paraplegic, she had 2 weeks to start feeling her legs, by the doctors figures. My Mother is now  numb from the lowest ribs down for 2 weeks now and we must face all the fact that she will be a paraplegic for the rest of her life. She and Dad must face trials they shall have to face for her disabilities. From being in the wheelchair, to being catheterized and carrying a bag for urine to diapers for the rest of her life. Her Sewing on her machines (which the adores will be a problem without feet to operate, no driving etc). This is going to be a time of mourning the loss of use for half of her body and dealing with difficulties as she/we learn to adjust to her newest disability… her artwork with her hands, thankfully she will continue and will be a MUST for her to work with to escape her new situation. We, are all greatly saddened by this.

my hands forming a heart, with the words "Asking for Blessings and thoughts of strength, the warmth of love and of wellbeing for my Father and Mother
As of late last night, we received the news of Mom’s Complications being back again. We are preparing ourselves for the worst and hoping for the best.

First let me start off with one of my apologies at the top here (the other one will be at the bottom of my post). I apologize for my lack of tweeting, posting on facebook and adding more to the blog at this time. I promise you all, I am going to resume my reviews and giveaways here very soon. First, I am waiting on the Blog’s Grand Opening for the whole Month of March, for some really fabulous Reviews and Giveaways. Secondly, I may not be tweeting or posting much for the next day or two as I catch up more people on the latest & I await some hopefully good news.

I have had a roller-coaster ride today with news on my Mother’s surgery, good news about the my Mother, she made it through surgery. Then bad news, machines were showing that she was not receiving the readings she should have to her legs, so fear was she’d become a paraplegic. Then the news that as she was able to move her toes on both feet ever so slightly, so maybe paralyzed from surgery and maybe not. Then the great news that she could feel the doctor as he touched her legs. Now as she is out of recovery, my family received the message below from my Father…

Quoted from my Fathers email:

Please keep the prayers coming.  She is completely out of the anesthesia now. 
 
As expected she is in a world of hurt and things seem to have changed for her legs.  She can barely wiggle her left toes.  Right ones don’t seem to work at all and she has no feeling in either leg or foot now.
 
There is some swelling in her back and the doc hopes the problem will leave as that reduces, but no guarantees.  He says it may take a week or …

As may be expected she is terrified.  Will spend a few days or more in the ICU.

I had a good cry finally while talking to my Sister on the phone, so nice to hear from her, it seems she read Dad’s email at the same time as I have. I have been near tears most of the day here.

I apologize and I am sorry that I started my post out the way I did for my “Day of Prayer” post and possibly the other posts as well. I understand, after talking to my Sister about what happened today, that it could have been misconstrued as to the meaning of those posts and stopped many people cold right there, as people may have thought I was pushing religion on them and they quit before reading what all I had to say… quite understandable. I am so sorry, this was not my intention.

I wish for you all to know that I never wished to push the people that quit “liking” my blog on Facebook away, nor did I intend to push religion on anyone (visa vi my mention of prayer in my posts, where I did try to include everyone in the posts by just asking for caring thoughts as well). I am easy going and never judge people for their beliefs, religion or anything like that.

I am so sorry for those I offended, honestly I was just posting out of fear for my frail Mothers well being and hoping that I selfishly may feel some support today, as I really love my Mother and have been finding it difficult to see her go through so much.

I am so thankful for the outpouring of care, sympathy and support by several of my readers. And I am so very thankful too for the many of you that have stuck by my side while I go through this right now… Thank you everyone. And thank you for putting up with my rambling in this post, I wrote this late at night and today I don’t have the energy to rewrite it, or add pictures… as you can guess it was a very hard night to get any sleep.

Love and hugs,

Mariah