Tis the Bewitching hour… And it’s my OT ranting… Fibromyalgia, Lupus SLE and Pain moment, forgive please…

Well once again life in the RW caught up with me and I over did it on the 1st of June running a friend around so she could get her things done. Unfortunately all I got done for myself (errrr—ahhh) so we could get home, was spend $20 on gas for the Van. I missed my stop into Kmart (she was in a hurry to get her perscriptions and get home, and I was in pain and forgot to bring my cane with for some walking support and was paying dearly from running into other stores etc with her…) Guess my hair stuff can wait, and I missed brining in a fan that I purchased at Hobby Lobby back in (cute little portable for .99!)

Ah well… next trip out of the house, I hope will be just for me… no one else to dictate when, where what etc…

Funny but I don’t get out much (imagine that??? LOL) but when I do lately it’s always for someone elses “emergency”… I need to really cut ties with these demands on my rare energies, I can’t do for others and not for myself… or I have nothing left to take care of myself. Funny when you live in this cheaper housing (Apartments) as I am right now, you meet mostly one kind of person… a user, you say no can do and they insist that it’s life or death for them… you say I cannot do this because of my pain level and my being out of all my 7+ prescription drugs and I can’t even see straight and they either want to drive (and of course they are fully taken care of with meds, housing etc… so they are all kinds of messed up on drugs stronger then what I even get…) so the answer is no… and I can’t afford gas… well, they will pay you… but if you accept pay they will call you day in and day out expecting you to take them everywhere until you run out of gas again. Mostly I’ve made friends with people who use me… I am on Social Security for my Disability and my husband is struggling to meet our bills. But these gals that I tend to befriend are disabled too, but they are totally supported by State and Government… buy scratch tickets (some of them) at $20 bucks at 2 or 3 different businesses and can go shopping daily… get their meds for a couple of dollars each, and free medical with no co-pay. Me I am paying Medicare, cannot afford to see the doctor, pay for my meds at $10 a monthly shot (with the Silver Senior Plan at Kaiser I could get 3 months worth of meds for $20 each and save as this is their preferred prescription through the mail… but only one of my medications is supplied 3 months worth at at time… figures huh???) Any way back to the rant about my failure to recognize that I’ve just met another “friendly” person that’s going to use me… they all think that I AM RICH, because I have a husband and that he works when he can submit a winning bid doing construction (remodels, tiling floors, painting, plastering etc etc…)

What’s a gal to do???

Well now onto the other kind of person that I’ve met while here in the Cheaper Apartments that I live in… the neighbor that is so sweet and so kind, I’ve met one! and This woman is a treasure, she would give you the shirt off her back to make you comfortable, she calls once and a while and either knowing that I had a bad day as she saw me limping while walking the dog or whatever… and will check up on me and even come to my door with some food that she just made to share or even dessert. She’s the kind that is rare to find and she’s one blessing that has a nice shoulder to cry on too!!!

Well… I need to rest up here… I just am one of two ways with my pain level up and not even an anti-inflammatory in my house, I either want to sleep all the time or I just can’t rest until totally exhausted with pain… it’s the last one tonight.

Well hopefully I will soon get up my Pain Blog and this will go in it… for now, I am saving this post for another time…